That's true, and if it's an emergency then do whatever you feel is necessary at the time. This exercise is more about breaking the pattern in thinking, something which is worked on over time.
[So not doing it in the midst of a situation in which reaction speed is important is fine, it's more about long-term changes in behavior.]
[Alright, that's a good start on that front, at least. He decides that's enough for her to keep in mind on this exact subject for the moment, so it's time to address another part of what she said.]
You mentioned that you scare people. Is that something purposeful, or is it something you would rather not do?
[And it'll probably be a lot easier and have more immediate results, which will hopefully be encouraging for Maketh.]
Scaring people--or not doing so--is mostly determined by body language, tone, and what you say, so it's a matter of identifying and then controlling those mannerisms that make you appear intimidating.
[Fortunately, he's in professional mode, and so the snappy 'so you did intend it all the other times?' only comes to mind briefly before being dismissed. But he's not entirely sure how to answer the question, because although he knows the answer it's may not be best for him to say it. Usually, keeping his feelings out of the session is the correct way to go about things--counseling is about the patient--but in this situation he needs to weigh benefit versus cost.
So it takes several seconds before he replies, finally having decided that answering will lead into another useful topic to explore, and so it's worth doing so in this instance.]
What concerned me is likely not an issue that usually factors into your problem with intimidating people.
[Since it's something much more subtle and specific.]
It was the way you spoke about what methods you'd go to.
[And doing so in order to protect people, which by extension asks the question of who's worth protecting and which, incidentally, had been the same thing that has most bothered him at the ball. Then, once again, it had been a question of methods in the conversation about Sato that had been a major problem.]
[That's not the answer she expects. Maketh stares at him, trying to determine where her flaw was.] Why? I was perfectly honest about what we would do and had done in the past.
[Should she have lied? Perhaps that would have been better.]
[He's very hesitant to go down this line of questioning, because he needs to keep this focused back on her, but she's asking for clarification and so this is a borderline case of appropriate to answer.]
You were. The issue was the practicality with which you spoke; there was no sense of the decisions having been difficult morally or emotionally, even if they were necessary.
[Even justified violence in self-defense usually leaves the individual with a sense of guilt, and if not guilt--which is fine--then sadness it had to come to such a resolution.]
[So she shouldn't have lied, but he didn't like hearing the truth either?
Maketh frowns.]
What I want is irrelevant. There was no peaceful solution. Either I came up with a way to incapacitate him or he'd kill my men. Of course I would have preferred a peaceful outcome. But that was not possible and so I reacted accordingly.
[Well, not the greatest response in the world, but it also could've been a lot worse. He is, at least, becoming more and more convinced that Maketh does have the capacity to care about other people and isn't harming anyone just because she wants to, but she also doesn't seem to have the inhibitions that would stop her from resorting to a violent solution when other options are possible but more difficult.
And he still doesn't know exact details of whatever happened with Will, which is an issue that causes him some serious concern.]
It isn't irrelevant. Why you take a course of action is just as important as the action itself.
[He doesn't think they're going to get anywhere discussing the specific incident with Sato, at least not at the moment, so he's trying to steer the subject to be a little more general.]
It's even more important in a situation that is tense or difficult; what someone does in a time of stress says more about who they are than what they do when things are easy.
But okay, focus, think of a better way to go about this that she'll understand.]
Emotions don't cloud judgment, they inform it. What you feel is usually instinctive, and much quicker to come to you than conscious thoughts are; how you feel about a situation can actually help you decide the right course of action in some situations. In others how you feel can help stop you from making wrong choices, particularly when the most effective plan isn't the right one.
[Maketh tips her head to the side. She's trying to understand but feels herself getting frustrated every time she says something perfectly sensible and finds it rejected.] Surely you know that instincts can be wrong. Mu judgement must be clear or I will make a mistake.
If you have overlooked something, then your protocol is flawed.
[She pauses. Watches him for a long moment.]
Morality is situational, in my experience. Your superior decides what is just. If you disagree, you are weak or your protocol is flawed. And if you are the superior, then what is just is what allows you to achieve your objective. I want these people to live. That is my objective.
[There are so many things he could say about that, and ways he could pull it apart and refute each piece. But instead, there's a more succinct response that ties back into their earlier discussion.]
This reasoning is why your methods concerned me. Basing what is wrong or right, and acceptable or not, upon one's own desires and goals is inherently dangerous.
[He only answers it because he isn't sure if Maketh is seriously asking the question; otherwise he would've ignored it completely. As far as her response, he sees a particular line of questioning that might be useful.]
[Right, okay, at least she answered how he expected, which lets him ask the main question he's trying to get to.]
And how do you decide they deserve to live?
[She'd told him before, at the ball, but he isn't entirely sure how much of the conversation she even remembers and it's best to have her reasons clearly laid out again anyway. As far as the Lothal part, he'll keep that in mind for later.]
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[Maketh twitches a little. Forces her hands to lay flat.]
It slows you down.
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[So not doing it in the midst of a situation in which reaction speed is important is fine, it's more about long-term changes in behavior.]
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[That's better, then. It doesn't compromise her situational awareness. Won't slow her down in an emergency. Maketh nods slowly.]
That is acceptable.
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You mentioned that you scare people. Is that something purposeful, or is it something you would rather not do?
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[It makes people see her as a threat.]
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[And it'll probably be a lot easier and have more immediate results, which will hopefully be encouraging for Maketh.]
Scaring people--or not doing so--is mostly determined by body language, tone, and what you say, so it's a matter of identifying and then controlling those mannerisms that make you appear intimidating.
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You saw me as a threat. I didn't intend that, in the beginning. What did I do wrong?
[It's asked with genuine curiosity.]
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So it takes several seconds before he replies, finally having decided that answering will lead into another useful topic to explore, and so it's worth doing so in this instance.]
What concerned me is likely not an issue that usually factors into your problem with intimidating people.
[Since it's something much more subtle and specific.]
It was the way you spoke about what methods you'd go to.
[And doing so in order to protect people, which by extension asks the question of who's worth protecting and which, incidentally, had been the same thing that has most bothered him at the ball. Then, once again, it had been a question of methods in the conversation about Sato that had been a major problem.]
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[Should she have lied? Perhaps that would have been better.]
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You were. The issue was the practicality with which you spoke; there was no sense of the decisions having been difficult morally or emotionally, even if they were necessary.
[Even justified violence in self-defense usually leaves the individual with a sense of guilt, and if not guilt--which is fine--then sadness it had to come to such a resolution.]
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I don't understand. They were not difficult because they were necessary. Should I have lied?
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[But figuring out how to explain this is not easy, and he's not sure she'd understand anyway, so he tries a slightly different question.]
Do you wish there could've been anther outcome? Or hope that, in the future, conflicts can be resolved peacefully?
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Maketh frowns.]
What I want is irrelevant. There was no peaceful solution. Either I came up with a way to incapacitate him or he'd kill my men. Of course I would have preferred a peaceful outcome. But that was not possible and so I reacted accordingly.
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And he still doesn't know exact details of whatever happened with Will, which is an issue that causes him some serious concern.]
It isn't irrelevant. Why you take a course of action is just as important as the action itself.
[He doesn't think they're going to get anywhere discussing the specific incident with Sato, at least not at the moment, so he's trying to steer the subject to be a little more general.]
It's even more important in a situation that is tense or difficult; what someone does in a time of stress says more about who they are than what they do when things are easy.
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[What is wrong with that?]
If I am a good officer, my personal feelings will not factor into the outcome at all. Emotions slow things down, cloud judgement. They're not useful.
[And she wants to be a good officer, Imperial or not.]
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But okay, focus, think of a better way to go about this that she'll understand.]
Emotions don't cloud judgment, they inform it. What you feel is usually instinctive, and much quicker to come to you than conscious thoughts are; how you feel about a situation can actually help you decide the right course of action in some situations. In others how you feel can help stop you from making wrong choices, particularly when the most effective plan isn't the right one.
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[Which is incredibly important in making a decision.]
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[She pauses. Watches him for a long moment.]
Morality is situational, in my experience. Your superior decides what is just. If you disagree, you are weak or your protocol is flawed. And if you are the superior, then what is just is what allows you to achieve your objective. I want these people to live. That is my objective.
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This reasoning is why your methods concerned me. Basing what is wrong or right, and acceptable or not, upon one's own desires and goals is inherently dangerous.
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[Except that doesn't seem to be what he's saying, exactly.]
I am not doing this for personal gain.
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[He only answers it because he isn't sure if Maketh is seriously asking the question; otherwise he would've ignored it completely. As far as her response, he sees a particular line of questioning that might be useful.]
Why are you doing it, then?
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[She pauses.]
Most of them. Not Sato. But the others I can protect. I was meant to protect people on Lothal and I failed. I will not fail here.
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And how do you decide they deserve to live?
[She'd told him before, at the ball, but he isn't entirely sure how much of the conversation she even remembers and it's best to have her reasons clearly laid out again anyway. As far as the Lothal part, he'll keep that in mind for later.]
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I decided before I knew them. It doesn't change anything. Not really. I just wanted to do one good thing here.
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