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Maketh Tua ([personal profile] mismanagement) wrote2016-01-25 02:02 pm
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IC Contact Post [Hadriel]

This is Maketh Tua. State your business.
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cw for vague allusions to child abuse, fighting, etc etc just in case

[personal profile] lifetothefullest 2017-08-08 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Lance is prepared for her to take a swing at him, or maybe pull one of her knives and make a threat or something, but he isn't expecting to be grabbed by the hair and pinned against the bar. The whole thing causes him to freeze immediately, but only while he gets a read on the situation; she isn't actually hurting him, at least not more than some pulled hair and the grip on his arm, so other than making sure his feet are on the floor instead of the rungs of the barstool he doesn't make any immediate move to resist.

It's not like this is the first time this has ever happened to him, because Maketh's right on one thing; the lesson never took.

He could fight back, but he chooses not to for the moment; he will if it seems necessary, but right now what she's doing is essentially just posturing. Although he's aware he should be afraid, and on some level he is, it's still buried under anger and defiance and exhaustion and the stress of the last several months. He just doesn't feel like being afraid right now.

Although he cringes a little when she wipes the blood on his face, his tone is just as venomous as it was before when he actually responds.]


And you're a coward.

[Because that's the only fitting word for people who look out for their own desires and wants above all else.]
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[personal profile] lifetothefullest 2017-08-08 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
[As soon as she lets go he's on his feet, backing away to put distance between them, not interested in a physical fight; he's even less so at that laugh and response, and the gesturing. They all set off warning bells, cutting through the anger enough for other emotions to begin tempering it.

So he shakes his head, backing up further, one hand trailing on the bar although even he's not sure if it's to keep him steady or just to make sure it's the only thing behind him.]


I wish I could help you.

[It comes out before he thinks about it, almost surprising himself with it, but it's true. There's so much wrong, and the part of him that wants to help people--the part of him that's much stronger than the temporary flash of rage and hurt--feels for her and wants to do something. But it's just not possible, for so many reasons.]
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[personal profile] lifetothefullest 2017-08-08 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
No.

[It's the same simple response that started that fight, and it's only fitting that this time it's to refuse to continue it. It's just as important to be able to say it now as it was then; it's one of the most meaningful acts of defiance he can manage, toward anyone who's ever raised a hand to him, to say he won't participate in violence himself unless he has absolutely no other choice.

And right now, he has a choice. This isn't a fight for his life, or to protect people he loves; it's a clash between two damaged people, whose convictions are too different for them to be able to even hold a conversation. It doesn't need to come down to this.

So he continues to back up, bringing up an arm to scrub at the blood on his face with the sleeve of his hoodie; his anger is fading fast, and now it is being replaced with the shocked daze he's more familiar with as it settles in and drains everything else he feels too. His hands are still shaking, but now for a different reason than before.]


This is pointless.

[And underneath the numbness he's starting to feel guilt for letting it get to this place to begin with; he knew better, and should've walked away the moment things got heated. Although he firmly reminds himself nothing he did warranted things turning physical, he does bear responsibility for how the conversation turned. Even though he didn't say anything with the sole purpose of hurting her, except for calling her a coward and the comment about reading people, he knew things were deteriorating and didn't stop it.]
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[personal profile] lifetothefullest 2017-08-08 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not participating.

[He says it simply, exhaustion beginning to return under the haze.]

I already told you violence isn't as effective as you seem to think.

[Not in making him do something, and not as an option to use in return. Instead he's ready to retreat from this altercation entirely, and begins circling around sideways toward the exit without turning away from her.]
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[personal profile] lifetothefullest 2017-08-08 05:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[The insult doesn't hurt, and wouldn't have even if he weren't feeling so dim at the moment, but he's making a belated realization that seems significant even if he can't quite process it just yet; she's backing off too, and that's only confirmed when she makes her own go for the door. He stops where he is, still nowhere really near the exit himself just yet, waiting for her to leave first.

But she's leaving, not continuing the fight herself, and he wonders if she'll recognize the significance of her own actions later once everything has calmed. And it gives him question about just how much she actually believes in what she said, because he's known people who truly think violence is the answer and they usually don't stop. They would've taken the opportunity he'd given them.

It's something to think about.]